Part of me feels guilty for cutting off my FIL from things that make him happy, but increasingly the things that make him happy are harassing women and I’m SUPER not okay with that, even if it is his dying wish. 🙄

I’m thinking of doing the same to the sister missionaries- I haven’t liked the way he’s talked about them in the past and I’m concerned that it might escalate.

fil is getting progressively more delusional and a lot of it is manifesting in the form of obsessing over a waitress to the extent of wanting to give her POA. I went to the restaurant today to ask the manager to bar him from the restaurant to protect the female servers there.

I wonder if my ex husband has seen the eel pit TikToks because I bet he’d love them.

I want to make a nice dress for FIL’s funeral and it’s so…. Weird. To be fabric shopping for something like this. For still wanting to engage in the craft that makes me happiest for such an awful occasion- ESPECIALLY when he’s still alive. Everything is wrong and weird.

Taco Bell managers at 4:15 today

He keeps throwing away the stuff we actually want to keep (like my mother in law’s things and photos) and keeping stupid prepper shit

Oh my god AND we’re going to have to clean out his entire house oh my god 😭

Oh my god I just realized we’re going to need to plan a viewing and my husband and his brother will probably dress him so we’ll need to plan for that. Also a casket??? I’m used to planning memorial services for babies, not adults. This is all new territory

We’re having the big conversation with fil tonight. Since I’m babysitting I can’t physically be there, but I’ll be on a call so I can still support. I haven’t panicked like this since I had to see my ex in laws for the last time 😀 I’m going to throw up!!!!!