I couldn’t react to everything that happened around me and let it paralyze me and my productivity.

However, I learned that balance was the best way to go. I had promised myself that no matter what I was feeling, there was a day to be lived. There were things that had to get done. There had to be a choice and a discipline that followed.

It was a blessing and a curse, because while I had to deal with my everyday life like everyone else, my emotions were a really big hurdle to navigate. Oftentimes, I didn’t want to feel them, because they felt like a huge distraction from operating normally.

Growing up, I was a sensitive kid. I would feel things at extreme magnitudes. Pain and happiness were equally overwhelming. The lows were really low and the highs were really high. It was a double edged sword. But at least I was learning about myself and I felt alive.

The idea of having an entire life without a father, without the conversations, without the arguments, without the bond we had – is what keeps me awake at night. These thoughts are the ones that hit me the hardest, they transform the dull feeling of loss into a deep, unbearable blackness

Semoga iman, kesehatan, dan kebersamaan kita sama orang terkasih selalu terjaga ya moots. Terima kasih banyakk

Beliau gapunya riwayat penyakit apa apa. Selain itu juga masih sempat motong hewen qurban, dan dengar kabar dari teman ayaah yang juga potong, kalimat terakhir ayah kalimat takbir. dan itu beener bener buat keluarga kita lega sekali

Hai moots. Makasih banyak atas doa doa baiknyaa. Maaf gabisa bales satu satu. Allhamdulillah ayahandaa udah dimakamkan ba'da ashar tadi. Dari kejadian ini bener bener belajar, kalo hidup dan mati gaada yang tau. Padahal pagi tadi sebelum sholat ied, kita sahur bareng dan beliau sehat sekali

Ayah bener bener ga sakit. Sehat bugas gaada riwayat penyakit. Meninggalnya juga pingsan pas lagi ibadah tiba tiba....

Moot minta doanya ya. Hari ini ayahku meninggal dunia. aku yakin beliauborang baik karena meninggalnya juga pas lagi ibadah. Minta tolong bantu doanya juga yaaa 🙏