friend was that she coast through life for a while. Figure out some way to live with the pain. I already knew that pain wasn't going to go away. That girl from vacation has owned the deepest parts of my heart for 32 years. It never gets better. You can only learn to deal with it.

It reminded me of all the feelings I had for that girl I met on vacation. I understood on a deeper level. When my friend's partner died during surgery I knew it would be bad. I imagined myself in her place, there was no hope there. No maybe they can reconnect someday. The best I could hope for my

time I could really feel close to her. But I only knew her first name. I didn't know how to find her. It was agonizing. A close friend recently died of a broken heart. She couldn't go on without her soulmate. Before she, you know… I remember her talking about her connection with her partner.

The smallest ray of hope stopped me. Several years before I had fallen in love at first sight. She was perfect. My whole heart longed for her every minute of every day. I never stopped thinking about her. I wanted nothing but to be with her. When sleeping I could feel her presence. That was the only

That time I almost TW suicide. I haven't talked about this yet because I understand from a unique perspective. The difference between her story and mine is hope. Hope that one day I may meet her again. It was the tiniest sliver but it was there. The almost is that I thought about it, and almost did

I just did.

For me it seems to be fasting. I can eat whatever I want as long as I don't eat a lot of it. And then put as much time between meals as possible. 😘

You look great!

Every time I do one of these NGL message things someone sends me messages like this. But I can't be their bestie or love them back since I have no idea who they are. ☹️

That is a very flattering dress for you. Scratch that. You are flattering the heck out of that dress!