trying to remind myself that it would be weird if i didn't feel completely bereft after a year in which my relationship ended suddenly, i lost my job, and i had to move back to a country i hadn't lived in for almost a decade. just thought i might have recovered by now

I did the same, I came to learn it doesn't work like that, each grief takes its own time, be it 1 month or 5 years. Sometimes it is as simple as a goodbye, other times I have to rebuild myself. As long as it takes, I'm sure you're doing your best. Be gentle with yourself. Hugs.

Sending good vibes and love and strength your way yo! I don't know how long it'll take to heal but I hope you heal yo!

There's no hard timeline as to when you should recover from something. Holding yourself to an expectation that doesn't exist and therefore can't be met doesn't help anything

After my marriage ended there were so many times I thought “I should be over this by now”, but grief is weird and uncooperative.