The weird thing is too, like if it was just lore-wise that there was a shitty town that was classist AF, you know, whatever, it wouldn't necessarily ping that part of my brain so it's interesting it did.

I hear that. For me it's weird, I kind of need that during the day because sitting for 8 - 9 hours isn't something I find easy unless I"m hyperfocusing on something I want to be focused on lmao

Truly the master I still use meds but 100% long term goals are always motivated by some form of I'LL SHOW THEM I'LL SHOW THEM ALL

I'm actually finding it very funny. Apparently my VERY good nose for danger extends to video games but I guess it would, right? It still relies on human cues we'd recognize irl in one way or another.

It wasn't even that, it was a general energy.

Oh wow so I really pinged onto something important then I thought I was being weird because it’s FFXIV but it was triggering actual horror response of I gotta get the fuck out of here I gotta get out

Oh hell yeah Also I love smoothing them down flat because you can fit a fuckton in your freezer that way

The sorts of small things I did last night are baby steps but it’s a LOT for me tbh. Like an actual big deal and impressive progress.

I never really had it. I’ve been through a lot and intimacy like that even among the people who are supposed to give it to you like I never got. I spent a lot of time tricking myself into thinking I was fine with that but I’m realizing I wouldn’t gravitate to it so hard if I didn’t want it