my whole life i always hurt myself chasing after someone who dont love me, one even use my genuine crush on her as an entertainment so i have a really terrible self perception... it's so hard for me to believe that someone actually likes me so i reject everyone who shows any interest towards me..

it's so hard for me to trust anyone cuz i always think they choose me not because they love me but because they are desperate to have a gf... that's why when i dreamt of wriothesley loving me so wholeheartedly, caring for me like i am the most precious thing in his life, i just fell for him...