why do i suck at learning languages, it is so embarassing. im smart and charismatic but only in russian

btw my previous collegues miss me and wanted me to stay but i couldnt stay in this city no more unfortunately :, (

maybe i got really proud /pernickety/etc because i grew up as a researcher in friendly laboratories in a city where people take care of their work and its continuity i dunno

man make up your mind already because i have deadlines for making a decision too id rather work with people who will tell and show everything because we students work just for free in this goddamn ruzzia thanks god these groups exist and can provide a clear and trustful communication

ohh i need a fish guy in the lab and you have an exact experience but only if you had a nobel prize idea oh what if you still my ideas.. no i wont let you work with my subordinates to understand a method you didnt deal before to come up with an idea for us uhh lol. what a circus.

okay maybe someone will tell me that it's normal not wanting to pick up students and you know i agree i understand it fully. it would be fine if he could tell that he dont wanna but he didnt eh

so im glad that i have found nice histologists for winter practice and a woman who wants to work with me on the human reproductive system (yeayyy i love this topic honestly)

plus when we met again when i was with the students for other reasons he suddenly touched my shoulders very intentionally. this was unprofessional and creepy, i don't know what he wanted to say with this

as i heard later from other people this guy is always playing hard to get and treats students like shit and telling me from the very beginning that i am the devil who is going to steal his brilliant ideas. bruh what? Im here only for the solid cooperation

i am no longer a danio rerio's cns researcher because of you know what? a person who could continue with me this work in another city turned out to be a fucking snob