I guess what I'm saying is I hate that my hobby has to become work to be seen as valid
like idk if I could just improve slowly on my own terms instead of feeling pressure to do studies and grind grind grind, then ok that'd be fine. but I don't know many artists who aren't actively improving their work constantly so it makes me think I'm not very good at this whole thing
this is what made me fall off from drawing. I can't create without seeing how it could be better so I just give up bc my shaky hands won't work with me
if they're not gay or trans they're gonna be aspec or something I don't make the rules (yes i do)
I feel like sometimes the art community focuses on technical skill above all else and frankly if it's """supposed""" to be a difficult grind why am I doing it? creative expression should be enough