Absolutely! I apologize in advance for the novel I am about to type up.
It's really just the only way I can think of to even being attempting to make the mistake right again, just by being extremely honest about it and accepting blame...accepting the judgement and anger that comes my way from folks who have been hurt by it all.
that maybe the folks calling us that were misguided or misinformed... Once we were in that mindset...so many of us started going down deep rabbit holes of misinformation that still had us as the "good" ones.. Hey sorry for that novel of text, I really appreciate you.
when I was told my ideas were bad...I took it as I was being called bad..and that couldn't be...I was a good person other people said so lol... So...many folks like me without thinking sought to justify our beliefs together, to prove to people we were not "bad people"..
Everything was always a battle of good vs evil, and I was a judgemental little righteous holier than thou ass-clown. (I was also a "nice guy" to women but that's a story for later) Because of that consistent good vs evil framing throughout my whole life, and my lack of actual education...
When I was in it I couldn't for the life of me see how I could be wrong. I was surrounded by folks who were telling me I was good person and that I was right. I was ripped from public school in the 3rd grade and my home school had taught about the rapture...being a "good person" was important to me.
Thank you for your kind words, it took a long time for me to realize how truly guilty I felt for all of it. Because I walked myself out of it without like guidance or help....I kinda expected everyone else too for some reason. I got lucky, but folks like me caused immeasurable pain and grief.
Also, while I do welcome people to just mock me, or take their anger out on me from all the pain those of us who got lost cause. I just want it made clear I am not a recent former member, I left prior to the pandemic. youtu.be/rkniaZtlfpg?...
YouTube video by CNN
To do everything I can to try to get people who still think like I did to understand why I say I was wrong, and hopefully get them out of that way of thinking.
The reason I am posting this is because many folks who were wrong like I was won't admit it. The folks who told us not to be on the wrong side of history deserve an apology. Saying "I'm sorry" though isn't enough, the only true way to apologize is to make this mistake right again.