Whether subconscious or not, yeah, I recognize indignant behavior in my actions. I regret it, of course. I can't say I've slain my ego, exactly. But the last few years have forced an overdue reckoning, and through lots of suffering, I hope has squeezed out some maturity.

Who I am and what I accomplish really don't matter. My time is finite and I've lost a lot of what did matter, but I, hopefully, have many years left to pester everyone, and I intend to be a better person than I have been. I still have to settle myself, but something has moved. No choice but forward.