I hate performative engagement. I love sounds. I love the feeling of love. I love that honeymoon period when you first get into a relationship. I love delicious food. I want to write compelling stories though I have not the talent. I wasted years of my life on porn addiction. Silently battling it

I wasted years being a consumer rather than a creator. Starting over from nothing is too daunting and scary for someone like me with no real life experiences. I hardly engage with people. It’s so late to start over I feel. I’m almost 30. I have 0 prospects and kind of just don’t want to think about