I want to live. I really do. I’m just afraid. No matter what happens I have to leave this room. It’s scary and I don’t know what’ll happen. Winter has helped me more than she’s realized. Her writing is beautiful. I don’t think things will work out but I do love and appreciate the short time. We’ve

The short time we’ve committed to each other. It matters! It always will. I’m thankful she chose to engage with me even the small bit she has. As I am now I couldn’t reciprocate any meaningful effort if I wanted. I do want to for sure. I just can’t. I don’t think she sees me in the way I see her.