That awful 48hrs where my antid*pressant stopped working is over but it was a super uncomfortable reminder of what I lived with my entire life until 2020.

Having to run home, weeping all night after bc my brain has turned no one wanting to play chess w' me into "you creeped them out; no one wants you here; you invested months in another community only to have zero connection; they'll be relieved or won't even notice when I no longer come around" sucks