his unwillingness to allow to 'San Lang' to even try to win his heart was partly because he did not believe he deserved his freedom and partly because he was unwilling to give anyone else the place that Wuming occupied in his heart.

And Hua Cheng is reeling, unable to believe it, believe that his god... That Xie Lian really... And yet, and yet it must be true, for Xie Lian is awake and in his arms and so Hua Cheng tightens his arms around his god and swears to never let him go again.