i jsut feel like. banging my head on the wall at times. my catshark plushie i bought on the con is now strictly associated with her and i just keep hugging it tightly just because of the association we slept on one bed and i woke up next to her and i just was like "fuck i want to nuzzle into her"

i am down bad so fucking much and it is making me jump on the walls like a feral animal I HATE THIS I HATE THIS I HATE THIS GOD FUCK WHY CANT I BE NORMAL JUST FOR A FUCKIGN SECODN!!!!!!!!!!!!