I experience a lot of people like this in my professional life. It's impossible for someone they have faith in to be misplaced, and they won't take no for an answer if anything else seems possible

thank god we might actually be done with that stupid bird app and onto the one i see posts from people i actually know and not ads or dumb shit for 90% of the posts

Maybe that itself is the problem, requiring a plan for everything

Europe does sound fun though. I don't know what I could do there, though. Backpack? Or settle somewhere entirely unknown for a while? My mind won't let me do either without a solid plan, that's the kind of person I am.

I might just need to get away from it all. For a long, long while. Go to Europe for a while or something. Idk. Life isn't being fair to me, and hasn't for long enough that my mind seems to think it won't be fair to me again. I would blame "terminally online" -ness but I'm online less than I used to

I can only conclude one of two things: One, I'm spiraling and this feeling is fake. Two, my subconscious has perceived a "threat", something I haven't consciously recognized yet. I don't know what's scarier.

I do like that this is a small platform. I feel like I can vent into a void, which is great. I genuinely don't know how to handle this situation, I typically mentally survey and figure out what the root cause is, but nothing's coming to mind with this and it's kinda scary.

I've felt very mentally out of sorts recently. I'll get through, I always do, but something's got me very weird and out of sorts lately, the best description I have is that feeling when you're met with someone who sets off alarm bells in your head, but constantly and set to a 2-3/10. It's painful.

gooigi

won't try speedrunning drunk but i'm significantly better at math drunk, somehow