I'm thinking about the dream again. The dream and self fulfilling prophecy
Maybe I need to journal. Maybe that's my problem.
I don't know what people want from me and I don't know what I want and those two opposing issues are so exhausting
So now I'm trying to figure out what I could have done and how to apologize and the answer is truly probably that I didn't do anything, that's just life you weirdo
I'm 31yrs old and entirely aware that other people have their own shit going on and it's not always that deep. But when someone doesn’t answer me but I see them active elsewhere that nasty part of my brain just tells me I did something wrong.
I used to read out loud to people. My friends and roommate in college. We would just read to each other, even if we were in the middle. Even if we never finished. I miss doing that.
Logging in because A) I remembered and B) I need to talk myself out of impulsively getting a tattoo on my upcoming Chicago trip
Unfortunately Cryptid Community College continues to be a cryptid and will not be recording an episode tonight. But as our GM Brendan said, "Play along at home instead and run into the woods with a shaky cellphone camera waving an EMF detector around wildly in the darkness"
Liminal spaces just hit different. Like doing my makeup in a hotel bathroom just feels 10x more fun