i dont care if i sound insane anymore, it fucking hurts in a viscerally tangible literal way- the isolation and disconnect is like five nails pinned through my joints and i want to cry with how bad it actually hurts to constantly get cut off, forgotten, brushed aside, and treated like a convenience

i joke about fae a lot but there is a fucking reason i relate to those stories and that entire branch of myth, and it's because at least with faerie i'd never have to guess at intent as literal. i wouldn't be the only one in literal pain due to people who say shit casually and don't mean it