You're invited on a guided tour of the knots i had to tie my brain in to rationalize the actions of authority figures i really need to keep admiring for some reason

this is actually what turned me socialist, the more leftist thought I was exposed to the less tenable my received political wisdom became I reached the tipping point of "i can alienate my lib friends, or give my self a lobotomy to keep justifying that bullshit", and kicked them all overboard