Then, as an adult, I found the concept of a "bullet journal" and was fully hooked. I made my peace with the word "planner" but I still can't use off the shelf planners, which means these days I make extremely custom layouts, print 'em on sticker paper, and turn them into layouts that look like this.

It has to look enough different, week and over week, to keep my brain engaged. and I need to have complete control over what's on the page, because if I ignore bits that don't work for me, it feels like I'm in trouble.