I know I'm not making much sense. I'm finding it difficult to communicate how I feel, but I guess... at the end of the day, this is why I feel the ideas of Yin and Yang are so important. I think the way to move past this is to realize you have to accept the positive and negative feelings exist.

I know I will feel better in the morning, and I'll likely feel stupid for these posts. However, getting how I feel out, no matter how confusing helps and is part of my process. Tonight should probably be a bed time diaper kind of night.