i'm still on a child's dosage of it and haven't actually finished unfucking any part of my habitat so the part of my brain that isn't getting enough chemicals yet says this is all completely fake and i'll never actually accomplish anything but holy shit is this how normal people function?!

was internal motivation a real thing all along? do normal people just get up and do things without needing it to benefit someone else? or friend "company" where really they're a babysitter to keep you on task because if you're the only one it's for you don't care enough to force yourself to do it?