ways in which my puppy is like a baby: - super fussy when tired but fights sleep like it's death - when he really won't go down for a nap, a car ride works - eats dinner only when i remind him it's necessary to get dessert (his whimzee chew) - flops down and cries when it's time to go home from Fun

i feel like i've aged several decades in the past year my existence is a cosmic mistake and a waste of resources but on the other hand animals like me /shrug

I saw this posted on twitter but I don't think that user is on BlueSky and I wanted to share it here... This interview with Ethan Hawke perfectly describes the importance of art.

my brain: i will make her one molecule of each neurotransmitter hypothetical creator being: a day? my brain: how does a year sound? hcb: i guess that'll do! [ timeskip ] me, realizing i got a lemon: YOU'RE NOT EVEN CLOSE TO MEETING QUOTA, YOU'RE FIRED my brain: you can't fire me, i AM you 😏 me: fuck

my chemical deficiencies are too powerful. i've been well over the fda max of one snri for years and just barely functional at best, but we've added a second now and i do not have serotonin syndrome. instead i'm like "i think it's finally working..???"

i left the fda max recommended dosage for snris in the dust a few years back but apparently double that is what it takes for me to get to the back right corner of my kitchen for the first time in a decade for fuck's sake brain you are VERY bad at neurotransmitters only one molecule allowed, huh?

if i'd gotten treated as a kid, would i have maybe achieved any of my goals? maybe i still would have dropped out four times and wasted tens of thousands of dollars on tuitions for programs i couldn't finish because the second i have to take an english class i have a nervous breakdown! but fuuuuuck

was internal motivation a real thing all along? do normal people just get up and do things without needing it to benefit someone else? or friend "company" where really they're a babysitter to keep you on task because if you're the only one it's for you don't care enough to force yourself to do it?

i'm still on a child's dosage of it and haven't actually finished unfucking any part of my habitat so the part of my brain that isn't getting enough chemicals yet says this is all completely fake and i'll never actually accomplish anything but holy shit is this how normal people function?!