The ace urge to want to touch and be touched by someone you trust and spend a while just in contact, but not in a sexual or horny way. While simultaneously the brain sabotages you into feeling awkward and needy for asking, yet not knowing what to do when it actually happens.
My entire life goal is to help absolve this exact thing. Contact is a need and valid thing that I wish was more casual, less front loaded with expectations.
OH MY GOOOOOOOSH. I am all to familiar with this mental tug of war myself.
This is what gentle touch is for... I have a lot of ace friends I completely understand!!
I have been in this exact same place so many times aaaAAUAUUGUGHGHGGHGHHHHH It sucks and I'm sorry you're having to deal with it.
Please don't psychologically dissect me in front of everyone like that
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You're absolutely precious