girl whose idea of romantic is getting held tight while crying hard

i want to feel safe maybe its wrong maybe i should accept no one is going to feel completely safe and in control of everything but it hurts so much

want mommy to hold my hand and tell me it's ok

is it selfish and hypocritical to want mommy to not die just because i dont want to be alone when i would rather die too am i just prolonging suffering for just my own needs

its us wishing if only any one of us had the courage to end it all kind of day again

i guess i lied a bit and it really wasnt much blood just about as much as you would expect from blunt trauma scraping off the top layer of skin and it pretty much just stopped by the time i washed hands but anything more than popping a pimple is a terrifying amount for us sorry

got another wound on left thumb that bled quite a bit trying to open some shitty packaging but at least we didnt have an immediate panic attack so i guess thats something... dont know if its just deferred though still a bit scared

1:11 love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you

don't want to be a burden to mommy want to make mommy happy want to be useful but all we do is being sad and making mommy feel bad...

chat is worried about someone seemingly using es tropes to justify them continuing being in a relationship that's controlling and kinda abusive and just generally not good and no im not envious at all not envious at all not envious at all,,,