it makes me think so much about thérèse of lisieux, and how, like, the claim to her holiness was not that she was satisfied by faith but that she had the will to transform herself into a person who could be satisfied by faith en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Th%C3%A...

Thérèse of Lisieux - Wikipedia

that is, her catholic counseling did not resolve heidi cruz's desire to be satisfied by her marriage, it made the project of her life the inward facing work of being someone who could be satisfied by her marriage.