Tired of being pushed and shoved away by everyone. I'm so desperate for friends and human interaction but it never pans out for me. Even my own sister makes excuses for not hanging out with me. I'll make friends and then they'll just ghost me after a while and I never get a single reason why. 😞

My entire life I've always existed on the outskirts of social circles. I might drift closer in for a while and then like clockwork I'm back on the outside. Excluded from hangouts and even just straight up lied to about things. "Oh we don't use ___ app anymore" but they do, just not with me. 🙁

Am I that fucking annoying? Am I mean? Do I smell? I'm so confused. I just don't get it. I've even made plans to take trips with people and then they change their plans at the last moment after I've already bought tickets and everything. I just want to know why everyone abandons me.