Well you can talk to me

I can almost guarantee you they aren't weird or creepy

Yes. Yes I do like beef.

Constantly feeling like I'm making the wrong decision.

Given the news of today I just wanted to say: I don't respond well with death. I usually feel either nothing or anger. I dunno maybe it's jealousy. Jealousy that no one will give me this attention when I die. What happened was unfair and tragic but there isn't anything I can do so why feel anything

Then why does my life suck

And don't say "oh it'll just come" or "it won't happen if you're in that mindset" either shut up and help or go away. Your back seat therapist act isn't helping. And if that's all you can/want to do then I pity you. Must be good to have everything given to you.

I guess I'll just say this here: I don't fit in. No one wants me around. I have to compete for attention and lose all the time. I'm not sexy or attractive. I am a massive loser.

Having been there many times... You owe nothing to your job. They pay you to do a thing. If they let you get like this it means they don't care about you. We love you and you're doing the right thing

Horny bird self is good