I know it is wrong to feel like everyone is out to get you and the intrusive thought making it worst on. I am just the worst when i get like that. I hope i can get my problem fix like the dullness how i precieve my emotion which does affect also other things like libido etc.

When i had this emegerncey appoitment at the therapist she asked me as well if i was suciciald or had these thought or tend to harm myself, i do not but back last year i did had moment where i sit and thought what was the point of all this why do i still keep going for what.