the line gets so blurred, i can indulge in genuine self hate by calling it a kink and i get an incredible sense of peace from it because it feels like someone is being honest with me and real honesty is intoxicating even if its just erotic cruelty.

whatever starts happening once u fill ur brain up with all the horny chemicals is truly so complicated… u can go so much further both physically and mentally when ur turned on and with any luck even emerge out the other side relatively safe