A line Iāve come back to over and over again through the years: āWe blossom and flourish as leaves on the tree, and wither and perish but naught changeth Thee.ā I hope someone puts it on my headstone.
Iām learning that having emotional and spiritual maturity at one stage in your life doesnāt necessarily mean you will carry it with you to the next.
Iām in a very different place than I thought I would be: A little ELCA church thatās just kind of quietly doing its own thing. Nothing all that exciting. Just an hour each week, with a little bit of charitable giving on the side. Iām not trying to get too involved.
Yes. Thatās the side I didnāt mention. That uplifting energy quickly wanes after I get home, and I find myself returning to a feeling of āEh. Why bother?ā
I donāt remember much from grade school, but in 7th-12th I did history projects on the Buffalo Soldiers, Dred Scott, Harry Truman, George Washington Carver, and William Henry Jackson.
Every Sunday morning, I dread going to church. But then I go. And I find that nothing energizes me, sparks reflection, and motivates my imagination quite like worship does. It really is a blessing.
Honestly, I think a combination of going to therapy regularly and spending time praying the Daily Office makes spiritual direction kind of superfluous, another unnecessary hurdle. But then again, I have no authority in the church whatsoever, so Iām not privy to the rationales of the institution.
Yeah, thatās been my experience, too. In our diocese itās actually required for discernment, if I remember correctly. Itās fine, I guess, but itās never really been my cup of tea. Iāve found it to be less helpful than therapy, because at least therapists will occasionally offer practical advice.
Wounded folks often make some of the best healers.
Same. Iāve had spiritual directors who were incredibly kind, sensitive, and thoughtful people. But never gave me much ādirectionā at all.