My heart has an ache tonight. Misery doesn't love company when it seems preventable. I wish I could help my friends. I still see so many of them falling, losing what they had. We're all in an unstable boat.
Definitely having the wind taken out of my night. Gotta figure out why an insurance thing isn't going to happen. Nothing makes sense. Sigh.
I got sick, so we aren't doing any of the planned Thanksgiving Saturday get-together stuff. I couldn't be more fine with that. There is no reason to risk getting anyone else sick. I'm a child of divorce- you can make a holiday anytime you want. Happy Quaranturkey Day!
The tired washes over me. Phone sliding from my grasp. This sleep is going to be Good.
I wonder how I've found deep friends magnetically drawn to me in the first place. A bizarre, struggle-loving, knowledge obsessive.
Been drifting near the flame of social insecurity lately. That feeling that if you don't reach for people they won't bother to reach for you. Feeling it Hard the last couple days.
Busy day. So many things. Only the smallest anxiety. On the edge of sleep, I wonder if I'll have more violent dreams. 🖤
Got bursts of motivated work done today. Exhausted my mind. Laid down. Opened up One Note and wrote another song. I'll take it.