today was my orientation for my new job and day 3 of my venlafaxine being raised to 150mg (never knew i'd been on a starting dose this whole time, but at 26 i lost my insurance & getting those meds back was a chore, but I guess that's what psychiatrists are for, now that i finally went back) 1/2
caffeine is a hard one! i can't imagine. nicotine and caffeine. idk what i would do. stay strong ๐ค๐ค๐ค im debating going back to bed tbh. i was up before 7ish to get to this psychiatrist appointment.
but there's only so many faces a person can make when they're like, "you say you have almost died a few times..." "oh, um, more like 14-15 times, but yeah, what's the Q?"
when it rains it pours, i guess. but at least i found a gd job ๐ซ ๐ซ ๐ซ
..but agrees with me that I do not seem to fit the threshold for generalized anxiety & so that is something we should explore. kindly, he was pretty good at hiding his horrified face with some of my stories, but still seemed somewhat flabbergasted, but that could just be my brain. #OneDayAtATime 3/3
Additionally during this meantime, I am doubling my venlafaxine, as my 75mg i've taken for years apparently has always been a starting dose. He agrees with my depression diagnosis, and told me the real long name of it that i already don't remember, except the non-psychotic ideation part... 2/3
psych app went well. hes gay, so my nervousness abated almost instantly. Seeing him again in 8w. Im added to the waiting list to snag a psychologist when one becomes available. (this is USA, so the waiting list is super long; we're just thankful christofascists haven't made psychology illegal.) 1/3
Been MIA bc I got a job finally at my local walmart ๐คทโโ๏ธ Been doing onboarding stuff, while helping watch my nephew & niece. Mom has covid for the 3rd-4th time in a row: got pregnant sis-in-law sick. I don't feel well. Been house sitting, cleaning, resting, & makin fake magic cards with artificer, hbu?