Never learn anything from being quiet. It's so stupid and overwhelming to the point where I want to give up on my passions purely because I think I am just not made to be an artist. There are many more personal battles, but this one kills me to my very core.

Because I'm too nervous and I get anxious. I find it difficult to share my work because it's not good enough, especially being friends on discord with people who are way better at what they do than me. I wouldn't want to embarrass myself, so I stay silent. However even that is bad for me because I..

But my executive dysfunction doesn't allow me to do it. It doesn't help that all the people around me, both irl and online all usually live life the way they want or better than me. I want to catch up to them, learn from them be like them. Even so, that's difficult. I can't even interact with them.

Thanks, it means a lot. I'll probably rant about it after I wake up. After all, you can't trust everything you think about yourself past 9 pm, lol