like yes i can create for myself and that's a good milestone. but when you hyperfixate, at least in my case, i rly wanna talk to ppl about it. but i don't want to talk AT anyone. i want to share in the interest??? but that's so so tricky when it's oc stuff and not fandom

and i just can't take anyone up on their generosity and just talk at them about it. not because of them, i trust completely that my friends would let me do it. i just get so fuckin guilty man. i can't bring myself to gush about stuff the recipient isn't into. whenever i do i feel awful