I feel like a piece of shit rn because I kept putting off visits to her, and now that just isn't going to happen. I'm such a piece of shit
And on top of all that being on my mind, now I find out my grandma passed overnight. I wouldn't call myself close to any of my family, especially on my dad's side, but I spent a lot of time with her growing up, and what few good memories I have of early childhood were almost all with her.
I should have fucking known there was no way anyone would want anything to do with me. If I'd have just thought about it for a fucking second I could have prevented myself from developing that stupid fucking crush and then everything that followed
I didn't even do any Aethercon stuff like I wanted to because I was too anxious I'd run into someone. I hate feeling handicapped because of how fucking dumb I was
I just want to disappear and start it all over
I'm a massive Bowling for Soup fan
Absolutely gorgeous piece!!
