Everything was going well, he got a new job working with his fathers company. Making sure to work twice as hard as everyone else so they couldn't look down on him for seemingly being handed a job because his father was the company president.

After graduation, he worked up the courage to tell his parents he was gay. It was hard and there were a lot of tears shed but eventually (after his mother dramatically kicked him out-he lived in his own apartment at the time) they came around to the idea again.

By his 4th year he felt settled. The time away from home did him some good. He still kept up with his studies and kept doing what his parents wished that he would do but he wasn't going to let them control anymore than what career path he chose.

There were drunk nights he made out with anyone who reminded him of the first man he loved (yes he didn't realize that's how he felt until he had breakdown at 3am over a song during his first week in school that lead to his roommate comforting him with video games and booze)

College was the best and worst years of Jiang Chengs life. His sister got married, his brother got engaged, he kept trying so hard to please his parents, getting a degree in something they wanted him to get a degree in.

So he ended things before the first college semester started. They were going to different schools anyways so it most likely wouldn't have worked out for them in the end.

After that conversation something shifted. Jiang Cheng pulled away a little more while still feeling so desperate. He wanted to go back to how things were when they first met. And Lan Huan as kind and patient as he is, was realizing that something's couldn't be fixed.

He continued with a sigh, "I can't just forget that..and think about my parents, think about my mother, what they would say?" He stared so intently at the stars trying to hide away again. "A-Huan.. you already know what happened when my brother..." He was too choked up to finish.

Feeling uneasy, Jiang Cheng leaned back and stared at the sky trying to keep the tears inside and whispered, "I could get in trouble for this." He took a deep breath and said, "All my life I've been taught that falling for a boy is a sin..."

Lan Huan put on a strained smile trying to find the right words to ease the conversation a bit. Then said, "What about next year? We will both be in college. What about going out on dates A-Cheng? Do you see us lasting?"