Maybe thats why I like sudden subservience or sudden dominance conceptually And it's likely that this is something I won't be able to experience on my own I'll ask if i can top with a friend of mine
Its always been more enthralling to actually talk to people than to make up scenarios in my head There are tangents people provide that even my deepest trains of thought could map out. Yet being fucked into a bed hasn't been the most rewarding thing, except for unpredicted stimuli
I don't think i have any real kinks anymore Or at least, not any hardwired ones, besides that one Most of the things I like are for the aesthetics now. The meaning of a collar, the metaphor of an anklet, and yet the more I understand, the less I get turned on Maybe I should try topping
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Disassociation*
Sub Hypothesis: separation from previous experiences is a key component in some cases maybe
Observation: confused pain and existencial worry of something permanently derealising is an immediate turn off Observation: buildup to suddenness seems to have a strong effect Observation: acknowledging the subject through symptoms they're facing (eg physical ones) induces the feeling as well
Sub hypothesis: derealisation of a sentient individual through means that shows their destruction (through which typically inanimate things are shown) may trigger gate F, while pleasure/gain derived through such by either party activates the other Simultaneous ltp may enforce this as a kink
Observation: merging of consciousnesses seems to have no downside hypothesis: the sudden dissolution of a conscious individual into an enclosed state induces an unknown functional gate (gate F) that triggers the negative symptoms, while power dynamics within that seem to induce some kink part