>>/ it was like 50/50 for me; more often these days it just makes me tired. I've tried to just reflect on the habits it made me aware of and work to ease/make new strategies for getting myself focused. kinda upsetting it seems like our brains have an insane will of their own and somehow not our own

our brains just arent producing the chemicals they should to reward us for doing things so like. everything we do just sucks the whole time we're doing it and when we're done its just done it doesnt even feel like we accomplished anything