I try not to be bitter, it doesn’t help anything, but I’m so unbelievably jealous because I’m trapped. I’ll lose my financial support, family, friends and so many others. I don’t know if I can. I don’t wanna be the family failure. I’m terrified. I don’t want to drown either.

I deserve a completely supportive family. I deserve to be seen as the girl I want to be. I deserve to be who I am. I got half a supportive family, I doubt anyone actually sees me as a girl, and I can’t be who I am. I’m trapped. It sucks. I’m in a body that rejects me.