You would definitely be a ticking time bomb of when you completely explode about your mental state being horrible after bottling up everything for probably YEARS, than you'd have to start showing your emotions more, mostly in a destructive way, by either killing others emotions or emotionally killin

To be blunt you are a lovestruck murderer who would be terrible in relationships, by either manipulating others emotions to destroy them passively, or just killing their emotions or just straight up through wacky shit killing THEIR SOUL AND EMOTIONS, LEAVING THEM A LITERAL SOULLESS HUSK