Cannot wait to get ramen Thursday.
Anyways I'm gonna Mine and Craft my terrible feelings away for the foreseeable future. I'm so fucking tired.
I feel like I sound ungrateful but the amount of times I was made to feel unwanted, unloved, and told I was useless just tops everything theyve "done" for me. Them setting me up for failure and then blaming me for not having the motivation to get up and go. I feel more pain then I do love daily.
My shits pushed to the back or made basically inaccessible, put into the dustiest, dirtiest places where it'll be forgotten cus I can't see it, and shits thrown away when I haven't used it for a month because I've been DEPRESSED. I'm sick of this bullshit I go through everyday.
This house was basically my birthday present. We moved here when I turned 2 and yet nothing is mine. It's never been mine. I'm not allowed to take up anymore space at all in this house. My stuff gets thrown away if it's left out of my room for "too long" even if it's out of the way.
I will cook a whole ass 5 star meal for them and yet I'm still not doing enough. That's why I don't cook cus it's not appreciated at all. Not to mention this is "not my house" so why should I be doing shit for yall. I just live here. The room I live in isn't even mine.
Yet my lazy ass sister gets off with nothing becus they "don't want to be bothered with her" like mother fucker I don't want to be bothered with YALL. Leave me alone.
Why is it always a fucking issue when you don't want to do something lmao I cooked them yesterday I don't want to fucking peel potatoes. I didn't even want to do it yesterday but I fucking did.