Literally as I geared up to make some art tonight, for the second time in what's felt like weeks, and it's absolutely killed any desire to try again. I hate this. It's awful being made to feel unwelcome in a space that I've spent so much fucking time building up for myself.

Right on the tail-end of feeling like I was getting some more recognition for what I do, for what I make, from those in the position to do so. Right after a win, I get knocked back down a peg, made to feel mediocre and outcast for what I do, even within my own fucking community.