the legend of zelda: ocarina of time is one of this worlds greatest materpieces. i could play this game hundreds and thousands of times again and never get tired of it. a remastered ocarina of time would destroy the internet, but knowing nintendo, theyre probably gonna fuck it up and make link gay.

its kind of hard communicating with people when you dont care about your own feelings. i always get told to treat people the way you want to be treated, but i could care less what people did to me. while im out here trying to care for everyone, i end up messing things up for everyone.

its kind of sad that i feel good when i do something as little as take out the trash or wash a couple dishes. its not like im living in a complete trash dump, but im usually too lazy to do that stuff regularly. it feels like i’ve accomplished something huge. im kind of really pathetic.

its kind of sad seeing the one person you genuinely cared for and would do anything for, lose interest in talking to you. whenever i talk to them now, i always feel like im walking in a minefield. one wrong thing and it could all end. i dont want it to be this way. i wish things were different.

i have trouble finishing stuff that i start. its not even that hard doing these small things, but i feel overwhelmed with more and more stuff being placed on top of my plate every single day. i want to finish them as quick and efficient, but i just cant bring myself to it. im so fucked up.

i feel like im too pushy sometimes. usually i like my solitude, its nice and peaceful, but when i open up to someone too quickly, it always seems like they want less to do with me. i dont think im sensitive even though i loosen up a lot when im comfortable. maybe im just too clingy. is that so bad?

i dont really think i have gender dysmorphia, but sometimes i feel like im more feminine than i am masculine. my genes are fucked up and i have hair all over my body, but my physique is more of a womans. i also act more “girly” or feminine.

theres been this song stuck in my head lately. i dont know what the name of the song is, but it sounds so beautiful. i could listen to it on repeat and never get tired of it…tha is if i knew the song name…haha.

i havent had a hair cut in almost 4 years now (call me disgusting all you want), and ive been debating on which haircut i should get. i kinda really want to get a wolf cut, but ive fucked up my hair so much that it might be a better idea to just start on a clean slate and get the eminem cut.

nothing feels real anymore.