(then, i took this birb photograph in the period between 2023 autumn and 2024 spring, with using a reolink camera, btw)
. i miss using this. www.metaseq.net/en/ blender? i also WANTED to use it of course....
levels of my own confidence about: • drawing skills: 25 → -100 • using Metasequoia: 75 → 29 • showing own face: - ∞ eternally • showing own ugly meaningless genital: 0 → e • recommending others to go birb watching: the image below these texts.
i rather recommend you to watch/touch/approach the productions of the professional creators. they have their own individual originality, even if their bodies consist of the atoms coming from cosmic bodies. well, there's no necessity that i should have said to you about it, though...
doing creative work? i forget how to deal with it.
my depression is also always caused by bad relationships with people. now, being lonely feels better ironically.
others' self esteem level > my own low self esteem > evaluation from others -v-
trying to learn CAD (for the exams to get the license of it) seems very difficult economically.... well, there are some free CAD softwares, but i wonder if those can help me to learn about the topics regarding the exams of CAD certificate.
...f********k