ok i calmed down and i think i was just kinda sleep deprivation spiraling based on mixing up some audhd symptoms. i'll keep an eye on it but i think all's well?

the audhd party goes hard all night long

Good! You deserve to be happy and calm and full of joy

i'm no scientist, but i've read that audhd folks in the predominant global culture almost inevitably develop complex ptsd. personally, i've found it a more useful diagnostic than bipolar. sleep dep can explain almost any odd behaviour i've witnessed in myself or others. glad you're feeling better