I cuddle my blahaj when my dysphoria gets bad. Some nights I wake up holding blahaj not remembering. Tonight I'm trying to stay awake as long as possible or to collapse to sleep so I can circumvent the dysphoria
wednesday. exhausted. i'm hoping to do another 3 hours running but i'm hoping i can get some real life stuff done before then. A bit too much of the latter
Dysphoria was very bad last night. She was crying and put on YouTube videos about goddess mythology and lore. Zeus kept Athene inside her to keep her down and she broke out of his head. I also saw a clip from a 90s adaptation of the odyssey where she says she chooses who sees her
What if in rocky Iv. Apollo creed secretly had gender dysphoria and that's the real reason he didn't want rocky to throw in the towel in the fight against drago. Rocky was right: the fight was about you versus you
Struggling with getting everything done. Everything is just high stakes all the time and only one shot at getting it right if I can make the time at all. Bf% went up today and I don't like that. I'm thinking of moving my daily training goal from 3000kcal a day to 3 hours a day minimum
Reading group concerned a paper by Talia Bettcher. Quite a difficult one. It was nice that a couple of participants not only knew her work well and referenced other papers. That whole convo was basically trigger warning for everything.
After work and the reading group I paused for a bit to sort out this complicated knot situation (not a euphemism or metaphor) and managed 3000kcal running. I was concerned I wouldn't get it done on time but by the end was exceptionally worn out. Felt v dizzy at the bike rack.
Things I saw in Aldi: spinach puree, I was thinking I have never used that in anything before. Also a significantly reduced microwaveable burger. Not long ago I would have considered that the mother lode or discount items but I soberly considered it and decided. No, I can do without this.
I'm hoping to get a two piece suit sorted for mcm London as possible backup outfit. This tailor I found makes me feel really good about my old clothes and that I don't have to get rid of everything. I do need to get rid of a few things though
