The situation is sad. But my dad has really good doctors with thoughtful bedside manner. One of my biggest fears has been that the pancreatic cancer would see him suffering a lot of pain. But they were clear they have many options for pain management, and that's helped me feel less afraid for him.

And my dad was glad to see me. He's very frail. He's slowly starting to depart, so his mind wanders. But he has moments of presence where I feel him focused & there. I was able to tell him what I want him to know, which is I love him, he's a good dad & I carry happy memories of him in my heart.