Still baffles me when at work customers tell their kids to "give your stuff to the lady(me)". So i guess i look sort of female. But i still... hate myself for looking wrong.

They are in love and eloped 💕

Very true

Other adults can handle so much more shit than ive had to deal with, so I feel weak. I just need to try harder.

Ive only got myself

Another positive, when babies come through my line, make eye contact with me, and dont cry :)

I want to fix my life, I just dont know how.

30s is when its meant to get better apparently, but im so far behind still... so fucking far behind.

And despite my efforts at presenting a normal front, a coworker picked up on something wrong with my mood, so i cant even maintain normalcy to at least keep people around me comfortable... im terrible.

All my local peers are at least living with someone, while im here talking to spiders on my wall and posting that on social media trying to twist it into something funnier than it is just plain pathetic.