I have always been a lonely person From childhood to now, I was always othered and its taught me its not worth trying to make friends b/c Im just going to get hurt, and theres no way to bring the ones you have into the real world But even now, Im still trying to believe Im worth anything to others

And its both despair inducing and depression fuelling Like, I didnt get to spend any real *genuine* time with other queer people. People like me. Until I was 24. And when I see things like cons, meetups and just hangouts so many post, it feels like thats something Im never gonna experience now

This country is an isolated, lonely shithole where if youre any kind of outsider, your odds of making real friends outside of high school are nill And with so young people here denied the true freedoms of adulthood like expendable income and their own homes, there is this overhanging lonely misery

Im only blocked by 24 people and on innocuous lists, so no idea of what people are going off

Cooking atm

Im honestly jealous

Things were unironically better in Web 1.0 days of forums and blogs where you could find out about somewhere new catering to your interests and could just go there if you wanted to, and none of these worthless silicon valley cunts were taking art and churning it into worthless, filthy ai slop

You have my contacts 👉👈

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